Goals for the summer:

1) Weigh myself only twice a week: Sundays and Wednesdays
2) Exercise every day for at least 2 hours ----> not that hard to do actually haha
3) Attempt to stop purging.

I
GREW
HALF
AN INCH
AHHH

5;7.5-5;8 (depending on time of day)

Haven't posted in my journal in ages.

122.8 as of this morning.

I HAVE TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND AT THE END OF THIS WEEK. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I'm so fucking SCAREd.
Last time he saw me I was 119. ):

I need to be 118 by Friday because I KNOW he's going to expect me to eat (he thinks i beat my Eating Disorder).  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

So fasting tomorrow, and hopefully tuesday.  If I can't get away with Tuesday I'm going to eat an artichoke for dinner which is 60 cals.  That, or soup.  But the artichoke is lower in cals so....

Then I'll eat Wednesday, and fast thursday and fast until I hang out with him on friday.

Ahhhh stressing OUT.

I was down to 118.

Gained a shitload.

122.

FATFATFAT.

3 Day Fruit Fast

Breakfast: Carb fruit (1/2 banana)

Lunch: Fiber Fruit (1/2 apple)

Dinner: Citrus Fruit (1/2 Orange)

Then I head to the gym for 2 hours, and burn 500-800 cals (it depends on what machines are open. ): )

Your Body Image is 92% Unhealthy, 8% Healthy

You don't feel good about the way you look... pretty much ever. And it's impacting your life so much that you need to seek help.

How sad.

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

Pfft, lies.

You Are 55% Bitchy

Generally, you're an average woman, with average moods. But sometimes... well, watch out! Sometimes, you let your mean side get the better of you. And you enjoy every minute of it.

121.

And I feel bloated.

My goal: Anywhere below 120 BEFORE Sunday.

I go to Disneyland with a bunch of friends.

I'm between 121-124.

So hopefully by my ski trip I'll be 119-121.

And when I get back maybe 117-119.

We'll seeee

I'm about 125-127ish now.

My new goal: 121 by the end of finals.

Bad news

back up to 129

uugh

Haven't posted in a loong time.
Anyway, good news.
126
Goal by xmas: 123

I ate a LOT today, and I feel disgusting.

ewewew
126 so hopefully tomorrow i'll be 125

I had breakfast, about 400 cals.

I'm trying to stay under 1000 for Thanksgiving.

Hopefully only eat maybe... 300 more?

Hopefully.

Tomorrow and Saturday I'm fasting.

Sunday is a metabolism boost.

Then 100 on Monday.

Eeee. I haven't changed from 126-129. Kind of varies depending on how much I eat that day. I feel really bloated, so starting tomorrow I'm running extra. Hopefully that will work. :|

THIN IS IN.
Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
Ana, make me beautiful. ):

Binged today to make my metabolism work harder for my two day fast.

Nothing on Monday except green tea + water
Nothing on Tuesday except green tea + water
Nothing on Wednesday until the Dinner of Death

BECKY FILIP!!!

Good mood. :D

UGH LOOK HOW FAT I AM!!!

ARGLKAJSDLKFJDS

Stats

Age: 15
Highest Weight Evuuur: 150 (EW EW EW)
Lowest Weight Evvvuuur: 125
Current Weight: 131
Short Term Goal: 120
Long Term Goal: 105-110

I CAN DO IT MAHN. D:

This weekend wasn't that great. :|

I'm 131 now, but I didn't really gain or lose.

Oh well. So I'm in a comme ci comme ca mood. Haha.

Thinspo!





She's seriously perfect.

Today was okay. :}

I ate kind of a lot.

Breakfast: 1 egg and a small peice of toast (maybe 130 calories?)

Lunch: Wrap (300 cal), orange (50 cal?) and THREE COOKIES. I know, I know, i totally caved lol. So each cookie is about 100 that equals 300 calories.

Then I went to starbucks and totally had a peppermint mocha lol. (370 cals)

Today was pretty bad, but I skipped dinner and had gum instead. (5 cals)

So totaly I had about....1150. Almost a normal day, uuurrrgh.

But tomorrows a new day. (:

And I weighed in at 132 lbs today. I lost half a pound, go me!


THINSPO!

I will not binge i will not binge i will NOT FUCKING BINGE!!!!

THINSPOOOO!






I want her body! She's skinny but still beautiful and has curves.

I am going to only eat negative calorie foods from here on.

Breakfast: 1 apple or tangerines

Lunch: Carrots and celery, maybe another apple

dinner: lettuce

137 lbs today.

Uuuuugggggggh what the fuuuck.